i need to write aimlessly

i need to write aimlessly for a paragraph.

i'm not in california anymore. things are not sunny and easy and filled with vacation. the world is broken. i feel helpless when all i want to do is help. i see confusion and frustration and disappointment and discontent. i feel the reality of death. not just the death that follows life but the death of purpose and meaning. the death of souls and hearts. where is all the hope?

i need to continue writing aimlessly.

i want to bring hope. i want to bring hope because i believe that there is ALWAYS hope. i want to hug and teach and love and direct. i want to influence and save and console. i want everyone to have something worth living for. i want everyone to experience the person that God created them to be. i want to see the lost come home and the downtrodden redeemed. i want everyone to realize it's not over yet.

i'm writing aimlessly because it's only just begun. i want people to keep fighting. i want people to realize that they have something to live for even if they don't realize it just yet. i want to see people persevering rather than giving up. i want people to experience grace and peace. love and mercy. the kind that i, or anyone else, can't give. i want to see Jesus save you, just like He saved me. and i want to play a part in that story...