HELP!
i have a hard time admitting that i need help. you could say i'm a prideful person. i like to believe i have it under control or i have the right answers. sometimes i even think that i couldn't possibly be wrong...
this is usually the time everything collapses. recently, i've felt a little "stretched" and exhausted, yet i continued to think that i could take care of it all. like i said, i believed that i had it under control. but then i start running out of time, or energy, or the ability to have a civil conversation. i got to the point where my creativity was gone. i was irritable. i became a poor leader and an even worse husband.
and that's when i realized i needed a good 4 letter word. then i used it. over and over and over again. HELP! HELP! HELP! HELP!
God, HELP me. i didn't know what else to pray or scream or cry. i didn't have some fancy prayer. i wasn't feeling holy or connected. i was at a loss. so i called for HELP. i'm still getting "HELP" and i'm still working on the above mentioned challenges but during this process i realized a few important things.
it's ok to use a 4 letter word... and i'm not in control. maybe all you need to do is call for HELP. i'm willing to promise that God will hear the shout. so just shout it, one letter at a time... H-E-L-P!
this is usually the time everything collapses. recently, i've felt a little "stretched" and exhausted, yet i continued to think that i could take care of it all. like i said, i believed that i had it under control. but then i start running out of time, or energy, or the ability to have a civil conversation. i got to the point where my creativity was gone. i was irritable. i became a poor leader and an even worse husband.
and that's when i realized i needed a good 4 letter word. then i used it. over and over and over again. HELP! HELP! HELP! HELP!
God, HELP me. i didn't know what else to pray or scream or cry. i didn't have some fancy prayer. i wasn't feeling holy or connected. i was at a loss. so i called for HELP. i'm still getting "HELP" and i'm still working on the above mentioned challenges but during this process i realized a few important things.
it's ok to use a 4 letter word... and i'm not in control. maybe all you need to do is call for HELP. i'm willing to promise that God will hear the shout. so just shout it, one letter at a time... H-E-L-P!
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