more than fine

here's a quick life update that may or may not interest you. i haven't written in this little space recently for a couple reasons. 1. i've been busy. which isn't really an excuse (b/c i did make it my goal to write here more frequently) but just a lame reason. 2. my wife has been away a lot recently and i don't really like to see my loneliness in writing.

kate is currently in ethiopia, following her heart and being obedient to God's calling on her life, which is celebrated in our house. however jubilant the celebration, which is very jubilant, i'm still lonely. i still feel like part of me is missing. and so really, i haven't been writing here because i'm reminded of my loneliness. then i turn pitiful.

so the less time i spend writing about my life, the less time i spend wallowing in my loneliness. i mean, i know i should be "bigger" than that. i know i should be stronger and happier and motivated. but i'm not. and i think that's fine.

the life update portion of this post is this: i'm working on being "more than fine" (to quote an old switchfoot song). and here's how...

... i restore the crushed spirit of the humble and revive the courage of those with repentant hearts.

isaiah 57:15

that's God speaking. and this process of becoming "more than fine" really just centers around Him. i humbly put my trust in Him, stop wallowing, repent, and believe that He will restore my crushed spirit and revive me. i have no doubt that many of you out there are hurting much, much worse than i am and i pray that you, too, will experience restoration.

we've all been crushed, but we haven't all been restored. i recommend the second and realize that it isn't possible without the first. let's find our way to the second, the restoration, the new life... it's gotta be worth the searching.